A Part Of Growing Up??

So this blog is going to be a little different, I just need to get this out. I don't know if its just the fact of growing older and starting your own family or what.

But for the past little while I've been feeling kind like a outcast when it comes to the families. I hate that I miss out on all the things that go on, the holidays, graduations, birthdays, just being there for the fun events.

I don't feel like I fit in to much with Jimmy's family. I feel like they just put up with me cause I'm married to Jimmy. I dunno how to get over this feeling or how not feel this way. I'm at a loss on what to do. But lately I've been feeling the same with mine. Maybe its because we live so far away. There are cousins who I thought I was really close with, that I don't even talk to anymore. I've just had my little sister say that I'm not a good big sister cause we don't hang out. But we use to before I got married, and moved.

I just feel like I don't know whats happening to my family. I'm starting to feel like a bigger outcast then before. To tell you the truth it really upsets me. I've cried a couple times over it. Jimmy really doesn't know how to act about it cause he has been away from his family for long times cause of the Marines. I just wish that whatever this is would go away.

Cause its so frustrating when its your friends that ditch you. But its alot more harder and frustrating when its family memebers that are suppose to be there no matter what.

So am I going crazy, or is that just a normal thing of growing up???